17 May, I still remembered that exact day. I was at the office, the only day we were asked to come to the office as my team leader wanted to conduct a meeting. We were all wearing baju raya that day and i drove from Sabak to Subang cuz i've been staying at my parent house since last week of Ramadhan. I received whatsapp message in our family group from my sister stating that Abah confirmed positive Covid. I dont know how to react. I froze and staring blankly at my phone screen rereading the message over and over again. It was that 1 thing i don't wish to happen in my life let alone to my parent, happened. Just like that. It happened. I didnt know how to react. Before i went to work, i hugged and salam abah and few hours later he was tested positive. And i knew that i needed to go back because i was in the same house with abah for a month, there are high chance of me to get infected too and i can also infected my workmate. When i told my superior, she then asked me to go back immediately. Padahal masa tu we all tengah party makan lauk raya made by emak. 😂 So i went straight back to Sabak. Straight to KK Sabak to get a swab test. Once i arrived, i saw emak too. There were so many people waiting to get swab, and they all are from the same taman. The cases started in Surau in my house area. Where there is one pakcik positive and all jemaah was asked to do a swab test after that uncle was confirmed positive. And unfortunately, abah and 30+ other jemaah was tested positive. And all of jemaah's families need to do a swab test. The result from that, over 150 was confirmed positive. 

On the same day abah was tested positive, he was brought to Maeps by a bus. That feeling when you watch your own father positive is pure heartbreak. Selama ni selalu baca news some people posted that their parents was tested positive and i cant imagine what if my parent got infected too. But now i know that feeling and i do not wish anybody else to go through the same thing. 

I wanted to stop blogging because i already wrote a new year post for 2021 but someone asked (force) me to post more of my life event so here i am again. Hi G, this post isn't dedicated for you but i'm here again because of you. 😏 Anyways, January is a blessing month for me i guess. I got to rekindle my relationship with someone. Been wanting to do so since early 2019 but couldn't but i'm glad we're both in a good term now hihi cuz the last time i had a conversation with that person, we were yelling at each other macam orang gila. 😂 and to those i have cut from my life in 2020, Thank you for the lesson. I'm glad i've got rid that toxic life earlier. I've said it before, and im gonna say it one more time. That one year is horrific, it was nothing but a nightmares. Such a waste ok. And until this point, aku still rasa geli and cringe when i think those days when i begged that idiot to stay and getback 😭😖Soooo cringey. I'm gonna puke every now and then fikir why am i that stupid. I regret every words i said. I take back every words please. Aku sanggup bayar 1 juta kalau boleh turn back the time and take back all those words. 

Sorry, i dont know yaya yang haritu. Who is sheeee? 

Anyways, i've got my hands on my second car finally. I've been wanting to buy a car since last year but theres several reason why i couldnt and one of them is because i'm unable to have a proper saving. Ada je lah benda nak kena spent and i regret every money spent to waste. Lols. I should have spend more on me. The feeling is very rewarding okay. I should be more generous for me, not for other people. I didnt plan at all to purchase another car. Out of sudden one day, i was like lets get a car shall i? So i did. Took me about 2 weeks to settle and hello new baby. Honestly, this baby wasn't my first choice. I fell in love with Peugeot 308. Its an old car but I still remembered that shiny maroon car i saw at the showroom. So i said to my abah i wanted this car. First he approved. Then he dissapproved because its an import car. Susah nak cari spare part katanya. So i went to search more for cars on my off day, also online showroom. I found blue Suzuki Swift. Mak's fav car. It wasn't love at first sight but i had to go for this one because at that point aku dah malas. I just wanted to get everything done quickly. So i told the SA, i'll be sending him all the docs later when all ready. So i went home. That night, i'm still scrolling through online showroom and i found this one Proton car and immediately fell in love. Cut story short, 2 weeks later, She's my baby now.